A (re)introduction

(This is my fifth time writing this because I couldn't find the right words. But fifth time's a charm, right?)

Hello, I'm Rachel, and I am an open book (that part helps with being a writer.)

I'm a dramatic being that likes to overuse semi colons along with commas, and that is the owner of a hyperactive mind that gets the best of me at times. I like to share my thoughts here on my little corner of the internet in the hopes that they will help someone in some way, whether it be big or small, and also to bring attention to topics like mental health and self love. 

Though I can sometimes be a mess, I'm a proud plant mom of nine. All of them are either named after a book character or an author. I carry a journal around with me everywhere because I never know when an idea for a poem or a story might strike. I'd like to think I'm creative, and sometimes I have random lines pop into my head and need to write them down immediately. One of the things I hate most is when I don't have a pen. Then that thought is lost to the hands of time. 

No matter where I go, I always take a book along with me. You never know when there will be an awkward, dry moment of your day and frankly, I prefer to be prepared.

At the beginning of June, I graduated high school. I worked so hard at making sure I didn't trip as I walked to get my diploma that I could have given myself a headache. It now resides in my closet. But all this means that I am going to college, and that to me is terrifying and alluring at the same time. The thought of it makes my heart race with a mixture of excitement and nerves, and everything around me seems to be flying past. 

Before I know it, I'll be in New York, and I'd like to share my journey with you. 

Like I said before, this isn't my first time blogging. I disappeared for a while from my other blog. I needed a break from everything after a whirlwind of a month that was actually the end of one and the beginning of another (funny how time does that.) 

My mind has always been hyperactive but it was beginning to eat away at me. I hadn't written a poem or anything that I felt was really me or that I was proud of in a while. I had become my worst critique in ways that prevented me from writing or really doing anything to my best ability without even knowing it. 

I deleted the social apps on my phone, stepped away from the internet and picked up a book for the first time in a while. Shortly after, I began writing again, and I felt like myself once more.

I share this with you because too ofter we forget to pause and take a moment to check in on our mental health. We all need breaks. And sometimes in those breaks we realize things that we had been avoiding. 

The platform I had previously been on was stopping me from fulfilling what I wanted for my blog. I want to put my best work out in the hopes of inspiring someone to reach for taller heights, go after what they wish for, or even simply make someone smile, and the other platform was keeping me from doing so to the extent that I wanted.

I'm a firm believer in fresh starts, so here we are. 

Welcome to my new and improved little corner of the internet!

It isn't much— at least not yet. But soon it will be filled with many different things from my adventures, ideas, to my thoughts and maybe some poetry definitely poetry. Consider it my online journal. 

I'm a writer. And I can't stop writing. My fingers get restless and I feel like I'm about to burst at the seams with words shouting at me wanting to be told. It's a part of me, and I want to share it. 

So here we are. 

You and I with no filter, only pure honesty and truth as I move to New York for college and become an individual, and chase after my dreams in a world of dreamers. Sometimes, I am afraid of my dreams; how big and unobtainable they seem. It's terrifying taking the jump but I know if I don't, I will regret it. 

You only have one life to do everything that you want to. You choose.   

Who knows what will come out of this. I do hope, though, that you will join me on my adventures, dive into my thoughts, find inspiration to go after your own dreams, or maybe the little push you were waiting for. 

Great things are upon the horizon.

as always,

Rachel.