Soon enough, I'll be twenty.
It's strange to think that a new decade of my life is just about to begin. It's the decade where I'll bring so many of my aspirations to life after spending the past two decades daydreaming about all the endless possibilities. Perhaps it'll be the decade where I move around for a while before setting down in a place that makes me feel safe and at home, and hopefully with someone who evokes the same feelings no matter where we are. Maybe it'll be the decade where I change twenty times or so as grow more and more into myself and my purpose as time passes.
The past few months I've been working to mindfully create more space for the things that enliven me while also minimizing those that only drain energy from me. I've become more conscious of myself. Specifically, on the power that I hold.
It's important to realize that, at the end of the day, we are the ones who choose. Even with everything that is outside of our control, we decide what we give our power to. We choose how we react, where we go, how we spend our time, what we put our energy into. And more often than not, we give most of our power to our weaknesses like insecurities, anxiety, doubt, self-hatred, and to things that don't serve us.
Change is something I've always struggle with my entire life. But I've come to recognize that we aren't meant to be static. We are meant to change, and multiple times at that.
I am not the same person that I was at the start of August. After a summer of feeling stuck and lost, I had a strong urge to make major changes in my mindset and various aspects of my life so I could be happier. I needed to make changes so I could start living a life that was true to me.
There wasn't anything specific that I did aside from spending a lot of time looking inwards to get clear on my intentions and my goals. It was a bit overwhelming confronting that part of my life, in all honestly. Mostly because I realized how accessible my dream are while also truly coming face to face with the fact that the only person keeping me from reaching for them was myself. That can be hard to digest, but once I did, it was like everything suddenly made sense.
All of the puzzle pieces I had hesitantly been trying to figure out, came together on their own. I've never known my purpose so clearly then I do in this moment. I've also never felt more authentic and confident in both myself and my abilities then I do now.
If there is anything I've learned in the past few months, it's that the things that make you feel uncomfortable, that put you outside of your comfort zone, challenge your identity, or make you feel scared, are the things that you need to embrace because they will lead you to where you are meant to be.
You feel uncomfortable because what you know is being challenge, and that moment is asking you to grow. You feel scared because it matters the most.
Nothing is too far. Nothing is impossible. Nothing is unachievable.
Everything that is meant to be yours is already yours. You only need to create space so you can finally see it as a part of your reality.
As always,
take care
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